Every year, I bring hot cross buns to an Easter brunch gathering of family and friends. Sharing food has always been sacred to me, all the more so when it's around a spiritual event. I don't know why I started bringing hot cross buns. We didn't do it when I was growing up; maybe it's my British roots, but it just seems the thing to do. (Good Friday is the traditional day, but Sunday is when we gather.) This year, for the first time ever, I am making my own, inspired in part by a recent spirituality of bread baking workshop at my church. Based on the test batch, I think it will work out fine.

The hot cross bun is not complicated to make. At its simplest, it's spiced bread. Flavor and ingredient-wise, its noteworthy for a few reasons. First, traditionally it's made with currants, an ingredient unknown in America except in its fellow British baked good, the scone. Second, it sometimes includes bits of candied fruit -- the same atrocity that afflicts fruitcake and makes it wildly unpopular. (I prefer mine without, if you hadn't guessed.) Third, it's only lightly sweetened, which may be a good or a bad thing, depending on your tastes.

And of course, most obviously, there's a big honkin' cross on the top of it, usually made of white icing...

It seems that every year around this time I'm inspired to write about renewal and fresh starts. That's not surprising, of course. The vernal equinox (March 20) is just days away and where I live in the American Northeast, the annual cycle of natural rebirth is starting to Spring into high gear. Last Tuesday, I saw my first snowdrops on the ground, on Saturday I came across an apple tree covered in buds, and now suddenly there are day lilies everywhere. This is the time of Easter (April 8), Passover (April 6-14), and the Persian/Iranian New Year (March 20). (I realize not all my readers are in a temperate climate, so forgive that I'm talking about it now. It's my experience.)

Christianity is full of messages of rebirth, most notably the semi-comical exchange between Jesus and the Pharisee Nicodemus in John 3, from which comes the term "born again." The whole thing centers on the fact that the Greek word anothen can mean "again" or "from above" depending on context. After Jesus says we must be born again/from above, Nicodemus is confused and says,"How can anyone be born after having grown old? Can one enter a second time into the mother's womb and be born?" Jesus patiently explains that he doesn't mean being born again physically, but rather born "of the Spirit."

I wrote once before about former Intel CEO Andy Grove's ideas concerning inflection points. Grove says that much of the harm is done not by wrong decisions but by people's unwillingness later to change direction. Even though they may know in their heart that they're on the wrong track, they stick to their course rather than admit error. Yet, Christianity offers us -- demands of us! -- the opportunity to do exactly that. Whether its a full blown conversion, an annual renewal along with the rest of the church community at Easter, or an individual act of confession and rededication at any time, Christians have many ways to turn around (con-vert) and get back on the path at any time.

My own life has been shaped by several conversions. My turning from addiction to recovery not only physically saved my life but, more significantly, set me on a new path of growth and harmony. My baptism, after having been raised atheist, was the result of a spiritual conversion that in many ways grew from that earlier "turning." And my decision to devote my work life to spiritual projects was another change of direction.

But understand that something isn't an addiction just because you use it a lot. For it to be an addiction, it should be that your use interferes with your life, you wish if didn't, and you can't stop. If you have an addiction problem, odds are you already have a suspicion, though you may refuse to accept it. Or maybe friends or family have been telling you that you do.

Make a commitment to abstain from something you have a problem with -- alcohol, smoking, gambling -- starting Ash Wednesday and continuing for the duration of Lent. Not the rest of your life. Just about seven weeks.

It might become a turning point. You might discover you like your life better without it and gain a real willingness to let it go. And if you don't manage to stay stopped, you will have learned an important lesson -- that this "habit" is maybe something more; that it has some measure of control over you...

My family is like millions of others in the United States who come together this time of year for the holidays and struggle to put their passionate differences aside for a few hours. Of course, these divides always existed, but recent years have been different for two reasons. First, major shifts -- generationally and ideologically -- have left many feeling left out of the party, so to speak. Second, politics is the ugliest it's been in modern history. There are plenty of hurt feelings all around. A lot of fear gets stirred up.

In couples counseling, it's an axiom that the most toxic thing to a relationship is not when the partners disagree, or even fight, but when they stop respecting each other. For several generations now, there has been little trust and respect in the political sphere. Both sides have demonized the other, have assumed ill motives on their opponents' parts.

But of all relationships, the deepest and oldest, next to our relationship with God, is family. So, how sad when distrust and lack of respect attacks relationships with literal brothers and sisters.

There isn't just one approach. You might choose items made locally; or by individuals; or from small manufacturers that treat their employees well. If you're not buying directly from the supplier, you will be considering the retailer too. Let's call it "conscious" gift shopping. The spiritual principle here is to consider the whole gift: what it will mean to the recipient; what it's made of; how it was made; who made it; how it got to your hands. I think everyone can embrace supporting individual craftspeople and small businesses over multinational corporations. At least for Christmas.

When you find yourself feeling particularly ungrateful about your life — or your spiritual director or friend points out to you that you are — you can stop and remind yourself of all the things for which you can be grateful.

There are some obvious things. You often hear people say, "at least I've got my health." That might sound trite, but if you have ever experienced a serious loss of your own good health and then gotten it back, or if you or to someone close to you is deprived permanently of good health, you will know that good health is a great blessing. Another common item is family — partners, parents, children: whoever loves you unconditionally and gives you sustenance and support.

Not half full or half empty — just half full

Gratitude list items can also be seemingly trivial things — or at least things that might seem so to someone else. And many things can be seen as blessings or negatives. For example, I do not live with anyone else. I could focus on and feed feelings of loneliness. But I can also be grateful for the control I have over my environment and how easy it is to meditate and have silence when I want it. (Ask anyone with a big family about how precious that is!)

It's important, even though this is a list, to not fall into thinking of it as a two-sided ledger. It's not "I'm alone but at least I have peace and quiet."  It's, "I can have peace and quiet whenever I want in my home."

It's not about seeing our world's cup as half full rather than half empty. Because the truth is everyone, and I mean everyone, has things they can be grateful for and things they can be ungrateful for. It's about paying attention to the part that's full. Who cares about what you don't have? Seriously. Think about that for a moment.

Focusing on what we don't have, on expectations of things that have not materialized for us, only leads to anxiety and self-pity. I'm not saying there is no place for wanting to create a more abundant life, but that's not the way. Paradoxically — as are most great spiritual principles — it is by being content with what we have that we are open to seeing clearly what is around us, and seeing new opportunities.

I often hear people talking about living in the present moment as if it is a struggle, some cosmic game of attempting to grasp something that is fleeting, illusory. They say things like, "the moment I have it, it's gone." While this is true and can be frustrating, the last thing present moment awareness is about is grabbing serenity. I have always liked the metaphor of the river (borrowed from my Christian contemplative practice of centering prayer) in talking of the flow of thoughts. Imagine the stream of consciousness as a river, with boats and debris representing thoughts. You're sitting on the bank of the river watching it. Normal awareness has you looking at each individual boat-thought, following it down the river with your eyes -- and to strain the metaphor, getting on it and opening hatches -- then suddenly shifting your awareness to another boat and so on. If your mind is particularly cluttered, you can feel overwhelmed by all the boats you have to look at and it can feel like that classic I Love Lucy skit with the conveyor belt at the chocolate factory, like you're falling behind and they start slipping by. There can be a sense of panic that a thought that's getting past you without attention is important and you're missing it.

Present moment awareness is simply sitting on the bank and watching the river, not the boats. Boats cross your field of vision and you do see them, but you don't follow them with your eyes or get on them. They're not out of focus, but you don't focus on them.

My last column, about waiting patiently for a late bus, provoked some interesting comments and reactions (on the site and directly) that tease out the bigger issues involved. While I wrote about waiting for someone who's late, two commenters brought up the flipside of the same time management coin -- what to do when you're going to be late yourself through no fault of your own. Fellow Busted Halo contributor Ginny Moyer wrote...]]> http://bustedhalo.com/features/what-works-53-martha-and-mary/feed 0 http://bustedhalo.com/features/youcat-a-compelling-new-way-of-approaching-the-catechism http://bustedhalo.com/features/youcat-a-compelling-new-way-of-approaching-the-catechism#comments Fri, 19 Aug 2011 03:00:08 +0000 Phil Fox Rose http://www.bustedhalo.com/?p=14172 Everyone registered for World Youth Day is getting a free copy of YouCat in their native language as part of their registration packet, as it is officially introduced in Madrid. When YouCat was launched back in April, we talked with its publisher. Here's that discussion.

When you think of a good read, the Catechism of the Catholic Church probably doesn't come to mind. That's why YouCat is exciting -- it presents the Catechism in a compelling and engaging way. YouCat is the official new "Youth Catechism of the Catholic Church." But its potential value goes well beyond this definition.

Today, Fr. Joseph Fessio, S. J., founder and editor of Ignatius Press, U.S. publisher of YouCat, is in Rome for the presentation of YouCat to Pope Benedict XVI. We sat down with Fr. Fessio last week to discuss why this book is needed, who can benefit from it and how it came to be made.

The pope has made several comments this year concerning vacations, which were highlighted in a piece on the Vatican Radio website. Summer is halfway over already, but he touches on some powerful ideas, so while there's still time, let's take a look.

Pope Benedict offers two basic goals for our vacation besides relaxation:

• spending time with others
• spending time with God

It's one thing to spend an hour or two with a person, or to be with family or a partner all the time in the daily routines of life, but there's something special (and sometimes challenging) about travelling together. Quality time is a great thing, but the hours of non-quality time during a vacation -- in cars, waiting at airports, between events -- create a different kind of intimacy.

And as far as what vacation to choose, are you challenged by the pope's suggestion to spend time with others? Is there a visit to family that you could do instead of that beach vacation which will yield greater fruit in the long run? Maybe not. And not every vacation should be about visiting family. Getaways are valuable too. But it's worth asking yourself.

It's obvious how to spend time with other people -- bring them along or go to them -- but how do we spend time with God while on vacation? The pope offers three ideas, and we'll explore each one a little...

Despite how highly I value and seek out serenity, I am linked continuously to my workplace and other obligations, so it's all too easy to feel pressured by the things I could be doing -- like Fran in Black Books, cursing under her breath while answering her cell phone as she's running late for yoga.

The seeds were planted centuries ago with the Puritan work ethic -- epitomized by Isaac Watt's 1700s hymn for children praising the worker bee, which includes the lines:

In works of labour or of skill,
I would be busy too;
For Satan finds some mischief still
For idle hands to do.

Meat-free Fridays were a given from at least the ninth century, but it seems that when things were loosened in the 1960s, Catholics said a collective sigh of, "Well, glad that nuisance is over," and started eating meat seven days a week. The Church never removed the requirement that one do something penitential every Friday (abstinence being one option), but many Catholics I talk to don't even know this. I'd like to join with the English and Welsh bishops in suggesting a return to the tradition of meat-free Fridays.

The fact that I live in a city, without any outdoor space of my own — no backyard or balcony — doesn't mean it's difficult to make this happen. There are parks all around, and just a walk in the sun down city streets can be enriching. For example, after working in the office, I often go to a park and spent a little time birdwatching or just strolling.

And contrary to all the neo-Luddite moaning out there, technology is now making it easier to stay connected with the non-technological world. Many of the advances in recent years have focused on untethering people from their desks. I am writing this column on my iPad; not only can I write it but even file it while sitting on a log in the middle of the woods, or on the grass in a city park. (OK, well, as long as there's an AT&T signal.)