Father Dave and Team Busted Halo have a candid discussion on how quarantine is affecting each of them personally.
Father Dave shares how the Covid-19 outbreak has changed life in New York. “In New York City, we’re in the epicenter, we’re in survival mode. We’re not thinking past the next day.” As someone who’s used to planning, the unknown of quarantine has helped him become more aware of his privilege. “Many people don’t know what the next 24 hours will hold and it is a luxury or privilege of the upper class to be able to schedule things for November.”
“So thanks be to God, I’m not a homeless person on the street not knowing where my next meal is coming from, but compared to what life is usually like, this is further closer on the scale to that. We haven’t run out of food and we still have plenty of luxury here … But there’s still a sense of living day-to-day and survival mode as opposed to normal life or planning or looking at the calendar. All that’s gone and it’s strange.”
“I think the natural tendency that many of us had when this all started is to think of it as such a short term thing; let’s just get through this. I’m not saying it’s gonna be like this forever and ever, but there’s a very different mindset [now]. It’s our mind, body and spirit. You can’t be in temporary or emergency mode for very long without really changing.”
Father Dave shares some personal challenges he’s faced navigating this time of uncertainty. “I need to find a middle ground, a new normal because it’s not normal,” he says. “It’s not going to be for quite awhile. And yet, whether it’s the sleep or anything else or, or my relationship with God or with the Sacraments … you can’t just keep going. It’s like a holiday. It’s like being on vacation and it’s not at the same time. There’s something in between. I haven’t found the thing in between yet or at least I haven’t embraced it or settled into it yet.”
Christina shares how quarantine has caused her some anxiety, “It’s been difficult. I think I’m someone who needs to control everything and I’ve been grappling with this for a few months now, even before coronavirus,” she says. “And so this is a new thing that I can’t control and I almost feel like I don’t know which way is up and which way is down. The only thing that I’m certain of is that I do this show every day and that I go for a walk at a certain time. And so I feel really out of control in a way. I have so much anxiety. I can’t sleep at night either. In general, I think too much, and I’ve had way too much time to think. Usually, I have some sort of distractions throughout the day … but I don’t now and my mind is constantly racing. I get tired at 9:00 PM but I’m up till 2:00 AM because I just can’t stop thinking about stuff. And I’m just trying to find the good, and to trust God in all of this. But I also am finding it really difficult to not be wishing this time away. I just want it to be over. I want the quarantine to be over. But in general, I just want this time of my life to be over and I want to be in the next phase of my life.”
Brett responds, “Me too. But I think that’s where our faith comes in. That’s where we realize we are not in control and God is the only one in control and it’s, it’s I think a real test of our faith.”