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Rebecca Gallo is trying to put into practice the lessons she learned while walking The Camino. Follow along as she continues her spiritual journey — whatever that might mean.

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November 20th, 2013

Belonging

 
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belonging“I don’t think you’ve ever felt like you belonged anywhere,” a friend told me the other day while we were out on a walk. I paused and looked at him, “Tell me why you think that,” I said. As he outlined his reasons, I was stunned. He was onto something.

  • For much of my first dozen years of life I was convinced I was adopted. I, the shy, quiet, bookworm could not possibly be related to my four siblings who were one louder and wilder than the next. Those pictures of my mother in a hospital bed holding a baby that’s supposedly me? Staged. Obviously.
  • In eighth grade I chose to switch from Catholic school to public school. I didn’t belong to anyone’s group of friends-since-elementary-school. So I sat alone eating lunch in the cafeteria each day, too scared to talk to anyone else. I was the new girl. I relished the time when all the other kids left to play outside, so I could sit in the quiet cafeteria and read. Then I learned I could get a pass to the library after I ate, so I could get to my time of silence even quicker. The following semester my mother gave me permission to take enough classes that I would not have a lunch break at all, thus ending my dread of entering the cafeteria.
  • In college, I decided my sophomore year I didn’t want to pursue the major I had chosen. But for various reasons I was told I had to “stick it out” and so spent four more years in a degree program where I didn’t feel I belonged.

And ever since graduating, I have been looking: for the job I belong in, the town I belong in, the relationship I belong in, the spiritual community I belong in.

Some pieces have started to fall into place. Asheville, I have said since I moved here, is the first place I’ve ever felt I could live for the rest of my life. And after my friend’s aforementioned observation, I realize why: because anyone and everyone can belong here. You can be whomever you want, change over and over, and you will still “fit in” here. Because anything “fits in” in this town. We have our conservative retirees and our liberal retirees, we’ve got our twenty-something hipsters with green mohawks making their living singing on the streets, we’ve got newlyweds and young families and singles. Vegetarians, Vegans, Freegans: you’re all welcome here. My friends include an engineer, a surgeon, more than a few retirees, a freelance film editor, a caretaker, a musician. They’re Catholic, Baptist, Presbyterian, and atheist. They’re gay, or not, or not sure. And every single one of them feels like Asheville is exactly where they belong. And so do I.

And finding a job where I belong? I’ve found several where that was the case for a period of time, only to move on when I felt the time is right. I’ve learned there are many people that don’t end up working in the field they studied in college. So while my license to practice physical therapy lays dormant, I have been a Park Ranger, a computer consultant, an Americorps volunteer, a math tutor, and an Anatomy teacher (just to name a few).

And though I felt like an outcast dining alone in the cafeteria of Haviland Middle School, I find I actually enjoy doing it now for a change. I still bring a book along, except that most of the time I end up striking up conversations with other diners.

And that family I thought could not possibly be mine? I eventually discovered that I was just more like my quiet mother, and the rest of my siblings got a few more of my father’s loud Italian genes. So next week I’ll head up to New York to see them. Mom and I will have our time together in the kitchen on Wednesday preparing for the next day’s feast. And on Thursday, I’ll sit down to a meal with the rest of the gang. Perhaps I’ll find I need to raise my voice sometimes to be heard. And I’ll do just that — as it turns out I got some of those loud Italian genes too.


There’s something about having a place where you feel you belong. Whether it’s a church community, a family, a group of friends, or a town. Take a moment to be grateful to all the communities of which you are a part. 

 
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The Author : Rebecca Gallo
In the spring of 2012, Rebecca Gallo spent six weeks walking the Camino to Santiago. Rebecca writes about putting into practice the lessons she learned on that journey. She's continuing her spiritual journey -- looking for deeper meaning, asking questions of all she's believed before, and finding answers in the people she meets and the experiences she has along the way.
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  • Dora

    Thank you.

  • http://renegadepilgrim.com/ RenegadePilgrim

    I can relate quite a bit to what you’re saying. Since returning three years ago from not only walking the Camino, but then continuing on what became a five month trip around the world, I don’t feel like I belong. And I live in Portland, OR, which like Asheville, is one of those places where everyone can find a place to fit. I’m still figuring it out though. Trying to find my place. I’ve gotten involved in more backpacking and hiking since returning and met some great people through Meetup. In the meantime, I just keep on plotting my next escape…a walk on the Lycian Way? Maybe. Shikoku 88? Maybe. So many walks…so little time!

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